Bidjibah

Post retroactivo… se isso existir. Não era isto que eu tinha escrito ontem, mas o computador demonstrou ser mais sábio do que eu e bloqueou antes que pudesse carregar no botão para publicar… Quando voltei a casa à noite o que tinha escrito não transmitia o que eu sentia. Acho que nada transmite. Não sou religioso, mas encontro algum conforto numa das “cinco lembranças” do budismo (tradução minha, a partir daqui):

“A natureza de tudo o que me é querido e todos que eu amo é a impermanência. Não existe forma de evitar ser separado deles.”

Seguem-se as únicas fotos que ficaram dos meus 30 anos… e algumas horas. Peço desculpa pela qualidade, mas ao fim de trinta anos não se pode exigir muito mais

Bidjibah.

“It’s not offensive, is it?” asked a friend in a previous comment. No it’s not, but it doesn’t mean anything either. It’s not my name, though I have used it as a nickname and pseudonym on and off for, almost twenty years! In fact, if you google it, you’ll find my profile on Last.fm and Deviantart.

So, what is in a name?

I remember being around 10 years old, when our parents bought us our first personal computer worthy of that name: an Apple Macintosh LC. After a couple of months exploring all the software which had come with it, I was ready for more. These were different times and the internet wasn’t readily available, well, to anyone I knew. Instead, I just bought a few packs of floppy disks and got in touch with the shop owner who’d sold us the Mac in the first place. He cordially filled all the floppys with all the software he’d got from… other people, I guess. Different times, heh?

Amidst all  that abundance of freeware, shareware, and… other software was a copy of Adobe Photoshop. No serial number, no online activation, just a registration form to print-out and send by snail-mail. I wasn’t going to print it out anyway, but some moral dilemma inside me forced me to make up the name you see on the top of this webpage. Now, I have been the author of a few works of art (subjective definition), but this is one of the earliest memories I have of actually creating something out of nothing.

Even after so many years, it was my first choice when I started looking for a domain to register. I’m glad I did. It keeps growing on me.

Thanks for your time.